God is good! All the time! God is good! God is steadfast. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He doesn't change.
Attitudes and feelings are sure fickle. Some days I'm patient, some days I'm not. Some days I'm loving and then again some days I'm not. I wasn't liking the days that I was short tempered, cranky, resentful and just plain ole not very nice.
Do you know about that "still small voice" Some people call it a conscious.....I call it God.
I know the rotten attitude has to go, but sometimes I think I'm justified. I mean after all Granma does some pretty gross and disgusting things and where ever I am, there she is. You'd probably feel the same way right?
Whether it's right, justified or just human behavior ......it's wrong. God was "tickling my ears'....don't you love that....."tickling my ears" ..... got that from the Bible. The attitudes are not right, and I know it. But I wasn't serious about doing anything about it. Well, I shoot up quick little arrow prayers. You know the kind ....."Oh God this is disgusting....please help me!"
A few weeks back I wrote about Granma looking in the mirror....wondering what she saw as she primped and smoothed out her non existent eyebrows .....I asked myself .....when you look in the mirror Susie, what do you see?
Once again God uses Granma to get my attention.
Last night I said a simple prayer straight from the heart that God was piercing.
In the wee hours of the morning the baby monitor tells me that Granma is up. I drag myself out of bed to see what she's up to. And God, who is so faithful and so full of mercy, gave me a "new attitude in my mind" Through Him all things are possible.....even cleaning up poopy messes at OH Dark Thirty. Who can be happy about that? ME!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm excited. I am so excited! and I am so thankful that my God is ALIVE AND WELL. All glory and honor go to my Mighty God!
Suzie.... oh so true. I feel this daily when trying to help others either where I work or by doing foster care. At times you just lose your temper, get upset over petty things, and sometimes things just don't go well. It's not always pretty but God is always there to pick you up and hold you for a bit... My prayers and thoughts are with you. I admire you for taking your time for your grandma. You are a very special person and I love you my dear sweet soul sister.....xoxoxoxoxoxox
ReplyDeleteYou are such an encourager. I didn't know you were dealing with the same thing. We truly are soul sisters or like Anne of Green Gables would say "Kindred Spirits" or better yet.......Sisters in Christ! My prayers are with you also!
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